
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
I was actually mad at him yesterday and since it’s our day today we agreed to meet up and celebrate this day. I was planning to make him feel that I am mad at him. making him feel and noticed that I’m not enjoying at all . but surprisingly the moment I saw him… I felt that I can’t really stay mad at him for long.. in fact I cannot get mad at him for real… I think it’s because I really love this guy… that I wish to keep him for the rest of our lives…:) Labels: My thoughts of him
♥our lips must always be sealed
6:13 PM

Thursday, October 21, 2010
I’m thinking… I’m scared…DOES IT ALL ENDS NOW? :’( I asked for a sign from God: if he’ll text me or call me before 12 am last night and try to fix things between us, then this relationship does not meant to end now. but why do I feel this way? Why do I have the feeling that even though there’s still going to be an “US” after we talked, changes will occur and that we can’t go back the way we were before?:’(
He asked me : I think when it comes to this, we can’t agree on the same thing. do you think, we can still make this thing work?
I answered at the back of my mind: the truth is I don’t know..:’(
He then asked again: Do you still love me? do you still want me to stay with you and be yours?
With all the confusion in my mind I answered: Do I still Love you? Well you know what, Loving you too much is all I know huggy bear. I never questioned my feelings for you…:’( But do I still want you to stay by my side? I don’t know… Like you said, I loved you too much that i sometimes unintentionally do or act things that makes it hard for you to breathe. I don’t want to do that sort of things anymore…. Change? I’ll do my best but I’m not promising anything…:’(
honestly, I feel like i don’t deserve someone as good as you..:’( I do want to be with you… but if that’s what you feel I guess I want to just let you go. It will hurt much I know. but if this would be the only thing that will make everything good for you…. I’LL DO IT JUST FOR YOU TO BE HAPPY…
Labels: My thoughts of him
♥our lips must always be sealed
5:58 PM
Ideas… things… keep tumbling down my mind… Am I that worried meeting her? But if i’m really that worried? the big question is with what? Too afraid of what might her sister think of me? the comments and all? too frightened of what will happen? Hmm.. surely, the greatest fear of all is the fear of the unknown..
Three hours left before he’s going to be in my doorstep fetching me to go to their house to meet her. I need to calm myself… ugh!!! Breath in! breathe out! haha! Go go sagoh! Just be yourself girl, and everything will run smoothly…
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*Gulp* I really hope so..
Labels: My thoughts of him
♥our lips must always be sealed
6:03 PM