Tuesday, December 7, 2010
The answer would be LOYALTY.
Yesterday, I was almost going crazy because I saw a picture that totally made my heart broke into pieces. It was a picture of my boyfriend (I don’t know if I still have a boyfriend or none) taken with his friends and with a girl that I really don’t know if she’s just really a friend or more than that. I cried my heart out looking at their picture. I tried to look for reasons as to not think of them as more than friends, but sadly, I can’t think of any:’( I have come to think of that idea when I had realized that this was the second time that we fought over an issue because of that girl.
They say, there’s always two sides of the story, well I don’t know about others if they would understand my side of the story, but anyway, here it goes: The girl I was talking about was an officer in charge in their branch on one of the famous music stores here in Manila and my boyfriend was also a trusted employee there. If you’re asking if I already met the girl? The answer would be a YES. She’s quite friendly and kind during our acquaintance and I always gave food to her, well in fact all of them (there are four of them), whenever I visit their store to bring food for my boyfriend. Then one day, they decided to go on a night swimming so as they can have all the relaxation that they needed and just to have fun. Well it is accustomed to us (my bf and I) that we always ask permission to one another if there are certain trips or gigs that we are planning to go to. He then asks my permission and I said with full trusts that he knows his limitation, YES. Well as expected he wasn’t able to text me a lot since he’s having fun with them so I totally understand that and went to bed. But the next morning, of course, it was like my routine to check his wall so just be updated with his life and comment things with his funny pictures or just say sweet words to him, I saw the pictures of that night swimming that he attended to and I was like very jealous of what I saw.
From left to right: the girl I was talking about(with the white top), the other girl who has a crush on my bf(with the black top), my bf (the one who carried the girl I was talking about, then their friend.
Seen the pictures? Don’t they look just the perfect couple? Oops! I’m not finished yet, I know you’re thinking that have you talked to your bf before making any conclusion about this first issue? Well, I did and like what most of the guys are saying, “we’re just friends, we were just like siblings.” *sarcastic voice*Oh well, I can definitely see that on these pictures! I thought to myself, does he really need to be this close to her?! Yes, I did gave my permission for him to have fun and all to join them but necessarily to flirt with this (sorry for the word) BITCH! I mean, I too have close friends that are guys but I didn’t do these things anymore since we started to be together just to show respect to him and I know for a fact that he’ll also definitely get mad at me just for being that close with a guy. But hell, here he is and done this!!! So then, just to resolved this issue,we talked and he told me that promise me that he’ll just stay away with her, I mean nothing like this like they looked like a couple just to have the so called RESPECT to me, of course with the sweet words and all. I can still remember he used to say that he’s just thinking what’s best for me and for us. (so this is what’s best for us?! I mean he knows that I’ll get jealous and mad at him for seeing this, and yet he still did!Oh c’mon!) So okay, the first issue was already resolved. But then again, the night before yesterday, he again asked for my permission to join a gig with his co-workers and since, he really did want to go and also for him to also enjoy and have fun I again said YES. But during these times, I don’t know what’s with me but I have that feeling that something’s changed. He wasn’t like the way he used to be when he’s with me nor when he calls or text me, but just to not think any negative things regarding our relationship I believed the reason that he’s just busy and tired (stupid of me!) Then there it is again..A picture with the same girl that we fought about once. (to think that we already have talked about this.) See this picture? looks casual at first right? but if you’re going to think if this is really that casual, does he still need to put his arms like that looking like he’s pulling her close to his body? Also, there’s another girl on the left side and they’re also friends with the guy who has long hair. Why didn’t the long haired guy put his arms around that girl? wEll since they are also Friends? like what my bf told me? Of course we talked again regarding this pic and I said give me one valid reason why he did that after what he have talked before? Sadly, all he did say is that I love you, and that girl and me are just friends and I didn’t cheat on you. Don’t leave me.. I’m sorry if I’ve done something wrong again..
Tell me…I’m all confused now..Am I still to believe about what he is saying? Don’t you think they’re really just friends? I would rather be slapped on my face by the truth no matter how painful it is than to be comforted with lies.. What do you think then? Labels: My thoughts of him
♥our lips must always be sealed
6:40 PM
Ben & Jerry's Ice-Cream